In My Line of Sight

Catherine placed the receiver back with a fervent smile on her face and leaned back onto her chair.
It has been long since she had seen him. Hours of talks on the phone was nothing compared to the smile on his face when he sees her. She recollected each word Kevin had said.
“…it has been a while, honey… I desperately wanted to see your face … n I wanted it to be a surprise.”
She had no words to reply.
“Well meet you at the old park. What do you say?” he asked “When will you be free?”
“In an hour… oh… may be half an hour…” she smiled
“Good. I’ll be there… love ya… bye”
Wiping away tears from her eyes, she got up. The usually boring day had suddenly found the dewdrops it was waiting for.
No time to waste. She sank in to complete the report she had to submit the next day.
A while later, a nurse walked into her room and seeing her packing, asked.
“Leaving early Dr. Catherine?”
“Yeah… big plans, Susan” she said trying the least to hide her happiness.
“Hmm… I can see that in your face” Susan said”… too bad you were asked to report to the emergency room… a minor accident case”
“What? No… I’ve gotto go… its really important. Can’t Lizzie cover up for me? Ask her, please. I have to go. Besides it’s my shift is over too.”
She always considered her job as sacred, but it has taken all happiness from her life… kept her away from Kevin. She was not ready to let it happen this time too. She too wanted to have some contentment in her life. She quickly took her stuff and headed out.
As her car headed out of her the hospital, a crowd beside the junction caught her attention. Accidents have become a regular occurrence here. Why aren’t the authorities doing anything for it? She asked herself. But it was while taking the turn that she saw the wrecked car. Her heart sank as the world around her contracted onto her filling her teary eyes with darkness.

Trying hard to keep herself up, she got out of her car and ran back. She ran back to the hospital praying with all her heart to not let it be true.

Pushing open the emergency door, she saw the white sheet been put over the beautiful face she had so longed to see.

I’m not sure if my introduction into the world of science was a blessing or a curse. It has definitely changed my outlook toward everything around me and I learned to think on my own. An academically average student became a curious observer and the thirst to know more only increased as I filled myself with what appeared to be the truth. But I had a larger prize to pay for that.

The truth I sought left a small hole in my pot labeled faith and my faith in god started to leak out leaving a dark trail behind me. Before I knew it, I had an empty pot with nothing to put my faith in. I never knew being realistic could rob you off your optimism.

Now I can never leave anything to chance for I knew that no one was there to guide me in my darkest hours or bring me luck when I needed it most. I felt betrayed and lonely in the world ruled not by love, sympathy or benevolence but by forces of attraction or repulsion and other forces that I now don’t care to remember.

I know I’m believing in the truth, but when I see others around me crying, sobbing and talking at the house of god as though to a person sitting beside you, who nods at your every word with compassion, sympathy and understanding, I feel that I’m losing something, something worth treasuring, something that makes me feel that my tears are not in vain.

The feeling of having someone beside, you no matter wherever you are and at all times, to show a shoulder for you to cry on and empty your sorrow, to give you comfort and strength.

To have an invisible yet loyal friend, lover, guide all the time.

Now I truly understand what god is…

It’s a part of yourself that comes forward at times of loneliness and sorrow to share your grief and give you a warm hug.It cannot change water to wine or cure the blind or get to rich in a fortnight or win battles for you or comes in all fury to exterminate the evil. But it does have the magical power to make you feel yourself.

This is the pic of a girl i saw in a regional newspaper n decided to draw it…
The girl in the original picture was really beautiful.. i just couldn’t take my eyes off her even while drawing , but this one is not

Another close up of the above picture

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